Lord, don’t look down on me!
I’ve tried to sweeten all my pies, and
Filled my void with soothing lies.
I beat the bushes for crocodiles
All the while I laughed and smiled.
Take this soul that is so stained and strained!
Lord, please let me on your train!
I’ve jumped a few cars in the rain,
The loco motive went clickety-whack, clickety-clack
On your cosmic powered turbo tracks.
I need to drink your purified air,
Breathe in your fantastic, shining fare.
I keep trying to find your silver lining,
But all I find is darkness there.
I echo hollow roars upon a hall of doors,
Past the swirling silver swords of Eden,
Down on my knees, battered and beaten,
I’m doubled down and bleeding
I’m at punching bag that has been reeling,
To know you once more, just once more.
Still trying to find your light
In this very, very darkened night!
I navigate from dawn to dusk
On a ship made of a mammoth tusk,
Somewhere between fancy and fiction,
You are an unprecedented contradiction.
You refuse to acknowledge the who and why,
You’re a cosmic cloud washing color from the skies,
That’s how you hide, even when you’re so tall, so wide.
I see the shadows of my reflections,
A hollow knowledge of my condition.
You withdrew to complete our separation,
But I long, flat upon the floor, in desperation.
Please, please pray for me!
I’m in a sea of waves and graves
Of those who went to search for Thee.
I’ll be dead far sooner than later,
Did I do what really mattered?
Countless stars dance in the skies,
Number each one for all my lies,
I stacked up a deep grave of alibis.
Show me by death or by fire
How to be with you, my only desire!